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if knowledge can create problems, it is not through ignorance that we can solve them -asimov
you will never find anyone who can give you a clear + compelling reason why we observe daylight-savings time
happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length -robert frost
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Friday, April 30, 2004
*comparing edith's awesome shoes to my tshirt*
amber: well, your shirts kinda normal green, and her shoes are diarrhea green...
Wednesday, April 28, 2004
oh dude, we should so do this one for warmups instead of that sister susie shirt thing....
i am a mother pheasant plucker!
i pluck mother pheasants!
i am the most pleasant mother pheasant plucker that ever plucked a mother pheasant!
(to be said like twenty times fast)
-stolen from andrea's blog
OH! i hope poseidon doesn't poke me with his tripod!! *a couple seconds later* no...whats it called. trident.
-bitch lawrence
Tuesday, April 27, 2004
Monday, April 26, 2004
Sunday, April 25, 2004
omg, this is why i love ellen:
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And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll
ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And you can't fight the tears that ain't
coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd
understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
-goo goo dolls, iris
no one can see
i started shaking inside
but no one could see.
i felt as if i had shattered
into a million pieces,
but no one knew to put me back together.
it's like reaching out to someone
when you know they can never come back.
but i reach out anyway
because i'm more afraid of
losing you
than i am of failure.
but i reached out and grabbed emptiness.
this emptiness,
this lack of familiarity,
is what caused me
to start shaking inside
where no one can see.
1/18/03
pain
bleeding and bleeding
it takes over your life,
becomes who you are,
the innermost part of yourself
for hours at a time.
everyone says 'it won't happen to me,'
but it's beyond your control.
it can happen at any time without warning
leaving you with nothign to do but follow the pain,
wherever it may lead.
the pain takes you away.
away from all your problems and fears
to a place you've never been.
you can be alone for as long as you like
because no one knows how to find you here.
pain can't take you back.
it can only lead you there.
you remain lost in a world you don't understand
with pain as your only companion.
if someone finaly finds you and takes you back home,
then pain ceases to be with you,
no longer constantly at your side.
while this is what you once prayed for,
by now the pain is so deeply inbeded in you
that you aren't whole without it.
you can never be complete again without the pain.
8/26/03
no one cares. not a single one of you out there gives a damn. you want me screwed up. you want me like this. you want to go on like your stupid life means something; like there's more to you than yelling at someone until she would rather be dead than to have to continue to take this evewry single day with absolutely nothing in the future looking remotely better. there's no way to get away from it, no way to get out. nothing in the entire world that can make me se e a possibility of things getting better. of knowing anything other than pain, fear, and hatred at home because i don't have anywhere else to go. i'm stuck here until you beat me so far down into the ground that i don't remember a time when i used to be happy. i don't even know what that feels like anymore. i'm too scared to get close to anything good because it only makes it hurt all the more when i come home and realize it can't last. i'm not worth that. there are so many things possible out there, but none of them are for me. only for the deserving people. only for people who manage to hold their life together and still have time for other things. people who don't realize how lucky they are to have a place that they can go to, no matter what, and feel loved. people who don't have to hide everything they feel becaus eputting things out in the open only makes things worse. these are the people who can look at the world and see something good. these people can see something better in their future. they may not even have to reach for it. some people can just wake up and be happy. it's taken for granted, it's a part of daily life. for them, happiness is never something constantly just out of reach, or something that will never last. for them, it is something so simlple that the absence of happiness in someone else's life is impossible to comprehend. it comes so easily to them, how could it be so different for someone else? and why should it be different? why are these people who are content with their life so blessed? what have the rest of us done that makes us deemed unworthy of being able to enjoy life? those that try so hard every day just to make things work, and yet they never seem to should deserve at least something in return, shouldn't they? the only explanation is that they do not. unworthy of being happy and a failure at life. why else would people be forced to wake up every morning and see other people be happy, the only thought running through their head being 'i can not be like that-and i must not deserve to.' for if anything other than that were true, then at least some of the struggles and effort put forth would have made some change, however small. but this is not true. it all comes to nothign in the end.
it's so easy. it just makes it fade away. any time. anywhere. it's as simple as that, and i'm me again. hwo can that be a bad thing? how can anyone truly understand and still condemn me? it's not like its anyone elses business anyway. and yet it's so socially unaccepted. shunned even. not like anyone would even know if i didn't want them to. i swear, people are oblivious beyond belief. something will be there in front of them, right in their face even, and nothign clicks. no mental connections made courtesy of their lack of common sense. or maybe just the all too common ability these days of seeing only what one wants to see. ignore something and it will go away. right? i guess thats only taking it one step farther. what you never see in the first place can't come back.
3/03/04
goodbye
the sky was bright blue but inside it was raining
you came up to me and your face was smiling and brave
but your eyes were not.
we were at your mother's funeral and i didn't know what to do.
i could tell you needed comforting,
but i was scared too.
i gave you a hug and we walked inside
when we came out there were tears in our eyes.
this was years ago and now you've moved away.
i tried to keep in touch but there was nothign left to say.
one night as i was sitting warm and safe in my chair
i answered the phone and heard a stranger's voice.
i was stunned as i sat there; i didn't know what to do;
my hands were shaking as i thought of you and
the final choice you made.
now i've been to your funeral too, and
i never had a chance to say goodbye.
1/8/03
the one who fell
i'm falling
and losing myself
along this twisted path
i hear voices
talking to me,
yelling at me,
but the faces are a blur.
pain, confusion, anger, frustration,
constantly present,
but i've grown numb.
nothing registers until it all builds up
and overflows,
becoming a giant tidal wave.
it overflows because i am too small,
too weak to hold it in anymore.
i'm worthless,
i can't do anything right anymore.
thats what i hear behind the words,
behind the glares and dirty looks.
i gave in somewhere along the way.
i lost myself. i don't know where or when
but i know why.
somewhere along the winding path
i forgot which way was up,
but i forgot in such a way that
i didn't notice until i reached for a handhold
and nothing was there.
i guess that's how things are now.
lost in spinning darkness
all alone
and no one knows how to reach out and catch you
because you're falling alone.
i've been falling for so long;
i dont remember what it's like to
have both feet planted firmly on the ground.
you never realize,
you never know you need someone to lean on
until you're so far gone that
you reach out and no one's there.
no one will ever catch you when you fall.
Once
she needs to tell someone
it's going too far
it was never supposed to happen more than once
things were different;
this wasn't the plan
when she started this horrible thing
that never made sense,
even to her
"this has gone too far" she screams
on a night, cold and alone,
after everyone she once loved had retreated.
she turns around and reaches for something no longer there
remembering for a moment a time when
things were different...
Once, there was a place where she could go
to watch the cool spring rain fall
on a world where things made sense,
her best friend at her side.
once, she rolled over at night, unafraid of being alone.
she felt safe where she was
and had faith in the people around her.
everything was ok when she woke up the next morning.
once, there was a time when she could remember.
remember how it felt to be happy, safe, or that she was not alone.
once she could trust what people told her.
no one told cruel lies that would tear her apart inside.
once, that was part of her life every day.
today, things are different.
there was never a time that it changed,
things just kept spinning faster and faster.
once, her best friend abandoned her,
leaving her hurt and alone, unable to trust anyone
for fear of being devastated in such a way ever again
once there was a time when she had to leave
everything she had ever known.
forced into a place she did not choose,
she kept waiting for it to start to feel like home.
once there was a time when she realized something.
everything she had ever loved or come to depend on
had left her.
nothing disappeared alltogether, everything and everyone continued to exist.
but not for her.
nothing wanted to be around her.
no one cared enough to give support when it was so badly needed.
she knows that someday it will be out in the open
someday there will be other people involved.
but what to do until then?
2/28/04
Saturday, April 24, 2004
*caitlin borrowing my phone*
me: well wait until 9:00, because after that i have free minutes
caitlin: i shall stare at the phone until then
me: a watched clock never boils
*hangs head*
hehe, this was from the christ school dance:
gabby: why are cups round?
me: *pause* what are you on?
gabby: no, im serious! its such an unflattering shape for your face!
hm...yeah. so i dont remember this AT ALL, but i was looking through archives and thought it was funny:
AHAHAHA!!!!!!!!
and the funniest question of the year award goes to:
Bruxinha427: ...dust bunnies don't turn into butterflies
Bruxinha427: do they?
Bruxinha427: dud!
Bruxinha427: DUDE
Bruxinha427: arg
Bruxinha427: dud!!!
Bruxinha427: haha
Mer498: lmao!
Bruxinha427: the 2 liter bebe one
Bruxinha427: and
Bruxinha427: AH!
Bruxinha427: i mean
Bruxinha427: 2 liter bottle
Mer498: do you ever feel like a little bebe when you're drinking out of a 2 liter bottle?
Bruxinha427: hahaha!
Bruxinha427: i'd never thought of it that way, no
Bruxinha427: but i see what you mean
Bruxinha427: AAHHH
Bruxinha427: i'm watching far and away on tv
Mer498: never seen it
Bruxinha427: and tom cruise looked like sean gannaway for a second
Bruxinha427: very very weird
Mer498: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Bruxinha427: I KNOW
Mer498: she [ms lawrence] is the ONLY teacher who plans for the exam to take the entire time
Mer498: everyone else plans for between an hour and an hour and a half
Mer498: so you can look over it for the rest of the time
Bruxinha427: uhuh
Mer498: and not rush, etc
Mer498: but NOOOO, she plans for like, 2 hours and 15 minutes
Mer498: even though she'll only give you 2 hours
Mer498: fucking whore
Mer498: w/ her stupid trudi-like neck
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: trudi?
Mer498: stones from the river
Mer498: she was the dwarf in the book
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: and EVERY time ms lawrence said anything during that book
Mer498: 2/3 of the class just saw her as trudi
Mer498: we had a discussion about that in studyhall once
Mer498: she's just as weird, annoying, obnoxious, and stupid as trudi is
Mer498: and she looks like her
Mer498: it was scary
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: we've still got 2 more books to read this year
Mer498: i am scared
Bruxinha427: which books
Mer498: chocolat, and the rime of the ancient mariner
Bruxinha427: oh, well that should be cool
Mer498: and we're gonna watch the juanito depp version of chocolat
Mer498: yeah
Mer498: but right now
Bruxinha427: you have the mental image of
Mer498: we're doing poetry
Bruxinha427: HAHA
Mer498: and she is mangling it
Bruxinha427: juanito depp
Mer498: yes yes
Mer498: *drool*
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: just block it all out
Mer498: but anyway, i came VERY close to stabbing her in the neck w/ my pen
Bruxinha427: don't let her ruin the entire art form
Mer498: she MAKES UP symbolism
Bruxinha427: haha
Mer498: then if WE suggest anything
Bruxinha427: she's like NO NO!
Mer498: she yells at us to stop "reading into it too much!~"
Bruxinha427: IT REPRESENTS A SPORK!
Mer498: YES!
Bruxinha427: haha
Mer498: and she tells us that what we think is wrong
Mer498: seriously
Bruxinha427: hahahaha
Mer498: i started out "well i think:...."
Bruxinha427: that's so ridiculous
Mer498: and she went "no! thats not what it means!"
Bruxinha427: does the same woman teach sophomore and junior english
Mer498: she teaches 1 semester of senior english
Mer498: unfortunately
Mer498: im hoping she'll die of stupidity by then
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: do you even have an alarm clock?
Mer498: or do you just....naturally wake up insanely early?
Bruxinha427: i have one, but just for time-telling purposes
Bruxinha427: it's natural
Bruxinha427: *hair flip*
Mer498: thats scary man
Mer498: guess what time i got up today
Bruxinha427: herm
Bruxinha427: 10
Mer498: *laughs*
Bruxinha427: 11
Mer498: try 1:30
Bruxinha427: AAHH
Bruxinha427: damn you people
Mer498: :-D
Bruxinha427: actually i have to start on some homework soon, and then i'm going to a thing at wake at like 6 30
Mer498: lol
Mer498: i was planning on...lounging and doing nothing today
Mer498: dude
Bruxinha427: always a good plan
Mer498: its saturday
Mer498: ....
Mer498: why the homework?
Bruxinha427: because my mother is like a rabid homework pterodactyl
Bruxinha427: it's very frightening
Mer498: haha
Mer498: im planning on getting mine done at cue to cue
Mer498: which means im planning on not doing it
Bruxinha427: lol
-->fruzsina
-->couch
-->casserole!
So I'm talking to my buddy, Stick Figure Don't Litter Man, about how much I hate my job and how I'm thinking about quiting the business.
"What would you do?" he asks me.
"I don't know. You've got a pretty sweet gig, maybe you could set me up with a Don't Litter job or something," I replied.
So he tells me he'll think about it. The next day he calls me and tells me he thinks maybe I should just get out and have some fun - relax and clear my head - and he invites me to go golfing with him.
So we play the first couple holes, things are going well, I'm actually feeling a little better about things and all of a sudden Stick Figure Don't Little Man starts driving the cart like a freaking maniac. The bags go flying out of the cart, my beer goes flying out of the cart, and then I go flying out of the damn cart!
And, as I do, I hear the familiar flash of a camera.
Turns out the whole golf outing was just a set-up to get me to do another warning sign shoot!
My "friend" tells me he just did it for my own good, that I needed to get back on the horse.
Creep. In real life he litters like crazy, too!
Friday, April 23, 2004
Mer498: ugh. i have paint all over me
Mer498: i went to set during my studyhalls
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: and we got a lot done
Mer498: i just got very painty
Bruxinha427: painty
Bruxinha427: good word
Mer498: yep
Bruxinha427: i realized today i forgot to set myself up any kind of birthday celebration
Bruxinha427: i feel very silly
Bruxinha427: it's on tuesday
Mer498: awww
Mer498: NOOOO
Bruxinha427: i think i'm developing early alzheimer's
Mer498: that means your birthday present will be late
Mer498: similar to your christmas present
Mer498: that was extremely late
Bruxinha427: oh come on, you were so planning that
Mer498: well...
Mer498: i planned to plan ahead
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: it just...didnt work out quite like that
Mer498: lol
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: well that's fine
Bruxinha427: i told nikki gifties were optional
Bruxinha427: so i guess it HAS to be for you too
Bruxinha427: *sigh*
Mer498: lmao
Thursday, April 22, 2004
Famous INTPs:
Socrates
Rene Descartes
Blaise Pascal
Sir Isaac Newton
U.S. Presidents:
James Madison
John Quincy Adams
John Tyler
Dwight D. Eisenhower
Gerald Ford
William Harvey (pioneer in human physiology)
C. G. Jung, (Freudian defector, author of Psychological Types, etc.)
William James
Albert Einstein
Tom Foley (Speaker of the House--U.S. House of Representatives)
Henri Mancini
Bob Newhart
Jeff Bingaman, U.S. Senator (D.--NM)
Rick Moranis (Honey, I Shrunk The Kids)
Midori Ito (ice skater, Olympic silver medalist)
Tiger Woods
Fictional INTPs
Tom and Fiona (Four Weddings and a Funeral)
Dr. Susan Lewis (ER)
Filburt(Rocko's Modern Life)
Wednesday, April 21, 2004
AWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!! *starts to cry a little* i dont know if you were there for this martha...but if you were...do you remember when i had this peppermint pig and christiana and allyn ann and i and possibly you put it in this red velvet bag thing and busted it up w/ a wooden mallet and then ate the peppermint pieces? well i just found that red bag!!! its got little holes in it from where the hammer and the peppermint tore it!! it makes me wanna cry! i loved that so much! i still even have a tiny bit of it (not that i would eat it) i found it under my dresser when we moved. that gives me a warm fuzzy feeling inside
Mer498: but NO BODY PARTS, OBSCENE LANGUAGE, OR DRUG REFERENCES are allowed in the songs
Mer498: which sucks, b/c it limits my options
flashofthunder18: damn
Mer498: i know
flashofthunder18: no body parts? like arms?
Mer498: hahaha
Mer498: exactly
Mer498: thats what she means kate
flashofthunder18: DAMNIT
Mer498: THERE WENT MY 'I LOVE MY ELBOWS' SONG
arg!!! french is EVIL! EVIL I TELL YOU!!!!!!! *dies* if winston makes another tree, i swear im gonna die. at least she goes after us this time...off to work. AGAIN.
Monday, April 19, 2004
hm...i wonder if its bad that i just made up an entire website for my works cited for my STUPID ENGLISH THING....she wont notice. she's a stupid whore anyway.
*mrs lawson doing notes*
look happy
sing louder
make sure you get your short white gloves on before the dance scene
genoa, zip up your pants
Sunday, April 18, 2004
What is your name?: meredith
Are you named after anyone?: my middle name was my great grandmother's name
What's your screename?: mer498
Would you name a child of yours after you?: hell no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: uh...never really thought about it
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: probably amy
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: merideth...i get that one a lot. and some stupid people cant spell 'may'
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: yep
Your gender:: female ...dumb question
Straight/Gay/Bi:: straight
Single?: sadly
If not, do you want to be?: i am
Birthdate:: 7-27-88
Your age:: 15
Age you act:: eh, anywhere between like 8 and 18 i guess...idk
Age you wish you were:: i'd love to be legal...
Your height:: 5'6"
Eye color:: brown
Happy with it?: yeah
Hair color:: brown
Happy with it?: most of the time
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: sucks
Your family:: sucks
Have any pets?:: 2 dogs, 2 fish
Whats your job?: i work as a secretary type person sometimes
Piercings?: 2 in each ear
Tattoos?: none. as of yet.
Obsessions?: everclear. art alexakis.
Addictions?: heh heh. not anymore.
Do you speak another language?: yes. i "speak" french.
Have a favorite quote?: "if you're not the brightest crayon in the box, beat the shit out of all the other crayons until you're the brightest." -art alexakis
Do you have a webpage?: um, a blog...not sure if that counts
Do you live in the moment?: sometimes
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: not really
Do you have any secrets?: yes
Do you hate yourself?: i suppose it depends
Do you like your handwriting?: not at all
Do you have any bad habits?: yeah
What is the compliment you get from most people?: that my hair smells good
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: "the girl who was obsessed with everclear"
What's your biggest fear?: definately not telling you that
Can you sing?: nope. but im in the musicle. so i have to.
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: not really
Are you a loner?: idk
What are your #1 priorities in life?: no clue
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: no way in hell
Are you a daredevil?: with most things
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: definately
Are you passive or agressive?: it really depends on the situation
Do you have a journal?: nope
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: strength: idk weakness: i let shit get to me too much
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: um...i'd be able to deal w/ shit better
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: uh, probably not
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yes. i regret june 28th SO FUCKING MUCH
Do you think life has been good so far?: compared to what?
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: before you do anything, how will you feel about it next week?
What do you like the most about your body?: i tan
And least?: my arm
Do you think you are good looking?: no, not really
Are you confident?: only sometimes
What is the fictional character you are most like?: idk
Are you perceived wrongly?: by some people. but i kinda encourage that, so no complaints
Do You...
Smoke?: haha
Do drugs?: haha
Read the newspaper?: only the comics, or a random article that seems interesting. although i actually did read like, and entire newspaper about local news in tennessee while i was stuck in the airport. god that was boring.
Pray?: nope
Go to church?: nope
Talk to strangers who IM you?: eh, sometimes.
Sleep with stuffed animals?: sometimes
Take walks in the rain?: ohyes
Talk to people even though you hate them?: yeah, but its usually something really mean
Drive?: sometimes
Like to drive fast?: yeah buddy
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no
Hurt yourself?: yep
Been out of the country?: no, sadly
Eaten something that made other people sick?: yeah
Been in love?: not really
Done drugs?: haha
Gone skinny dipping?: ;)
Had a medical emergency?: yes
Had surgery?: yes
Ran away from home?: yeah...didnt really work though
Played strip poker?: yeah...i won though
Gotten beaten up?: nope
Beaten someone up?: i suppose...if that incident would count...
Been picked on?: sure
Been on stage?: yeah...dammit
Slept outdoors?: of course!
Thought about suicide?: who hasnt?
Pulled an all nighter?: nooooo. i've managed to make it this far in life and NEVER EVER pulled an all nighter. hah. several.
If yes, what is your record?: um...i think it was around 37-38 hours...idk, i was tired
Gone one day without food?: yeah
Talked on the phone all night?: yeah
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yeah
Slept all day?: no...
Killed someone?: nah...just bugs
Made out with a stranger?: *shifty eyes* maybe...
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: yeah
Kissed the same sex?: no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
Been betrayed?: sure
Had a dream that came true?: yeah...it really scared me too...
Broken the law?: yeah
Met a famous person?: define "famous"
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: erm...kind of
On purpose?: yeah...but i didnt know any better!
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yeah...but it was something that needed to be told...
Stolen anything?: yeah
Been on radio/tv?: yeah
Been in a mosh-pit?: yep
Had a nervous breakdown?: i think so...
Bungee jumped?: no, but i reeeally want to
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes...but lets not go there
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?: idk..sure, why not
Miracles?: no
Astrology?: no
Magic?: no
God?: no
Satan?: no
Santa?: no
Ghosts?: no (see a common theme here?)
Luck?: not really
Love at first sight?: no
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: idk
Witches?: no
Easter bunny?: no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: um...i dont think so
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: no dude. we did that in physics. rainbows are round
Do you wish on stars?: sometimes...not like i expect it to come true or anything though...just something to do
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: absolutely not
Where do you think we go when we die?: into a wooden casket into the ground.
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yes
Who is your best friend?: idk, i dont like to choose
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: im not sure...i try to avoid having any one person know too much
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: um..its up there somewhere. "before you do anything, think how you're going to feel about it next week"
Your favourite inside joke?: idk, probably 'indeed' or 'frodos havin a bebe'
Thing you're picked on most about?: idk
Who's your longest known friend?: christiana
Newest?: um...jessamyn maybe
Shyest?: idk
Funniest?: lots of my friends are funny
Sweetest?: fruzsina or janet maybe...idk
Closest?: not really sure
Weirdest?: um...possibly kate. but in a good way!
Smartest?: probably edith. she knows way too many random facts
Ditziest?: um...maybe sarah bare or kate (also in a good way!)
Friends you miss being close to the most?: ellen
Last person you talked to online?: erm, andrea i think
Who do you talk to most online?: usually andrea or maybe martha...idk
Who are you on the phone with most?: not sure
Who do you trust most?: it depends on what you're trusting them with
Who listens to your problems?: depends on the problem and whether or not i wanna talk about it
Who do you fight most with?: parents
Who's the nicest?: definately not gonna pick
Who's the most outgoing?: ummm
Who's the best singer?: idk
Who's on your ####-list?: #### list?? i dont know what this question said. lol.
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: im assuming guy friends here... *shifty eyes* of course not!
Who's your second family?: the campbells used to be...idk, i dont really have a 'second family' anymore. unless you count salem. but i dont want that to be my second family. so uh...nevermind.
Do you always feel understood?: hell no
Who's the loudest friend?: lydia. but she's not really a friend...she's just loud
Do you trust others easily?: no
Who's house were you last at?: erm, maebeths? maybe...
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: it really depends on the situation
Do your friends know you?: some of them
Friend that lives farthest away:: mary
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: not really
What do you find romantic?: mix tapes!!!! (yeah, i know i stole kates answer there, but it really is!) and anything like, made especially for the person
Turn-on?: muscles...eyes...idk
Turn-off?: polo shirts
First kiss?: thats not really asking a question
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: idk, flattered and awkard i guess
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating?: well, not really
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable for a girl to ask a guy out: no....it doesnt really matter anyway. who cares about "socially acceptable"
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive: hey now, "physically unattractive" is so mean!
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: sure. i hope.
What's the last present someone gave you?: uh...
Who Was the Last Person...
You wanted to kill?: my dad, rain, and nicky leow
That you laughed at?: um...andrea when she called me a nocturnal baboon
That laughed at you?: no clue
That turned you on?: the hotness
You went shopping with?: my mom i guess...it wasnt really "shopping" it was "buying".
To disappoint you?: forget about it.
To ask you out?: i hate that term. "to ask someone out." it sucks. rephrase the question and i might answer
To make you cry?: do NOT go there
To brighten up your day?: lexi
That you thought about?: leave me alone
You saw a movie with?: like, went to see a movie in the theater? i dont remember. but just 'seeing a movie' was andrea...
You talked to on the phone?: someone calling for my dad...
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: someone yesterday
You saw?: my mom
You lost?: i typically dont "lose" people, but i suppose it would be abi...
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: no.
Will it be with your significant other?: no
Or some random person?: uhh
What are you wearing right now?: nasty tshirt covered in dog hair and shorts
Body part you're touching right now:: what?
What are you worried about right now?: my finger...its bleeding
What book are you reading?: i am currently not reading anything
What's on your mousepad?: its just a piece of paper...i'm cheap. lol
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: "what the fuck? oh, nevermind."
Are you bored?: yes
Are you tired?: yes
Are you talking to anyone online?: nope. i put up an away message
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no
Are you lonely or content?: not content...never really thought about lonely.
Are you listening to music?: yep. dmx, party up
Saturday, April 17, 2004
i saw erin at target today. i really dont know why she's still at forsyth...she's way too nice for that.
Friday, April 16, 2004
4 hour rehearsals really suck. my feet hurt. i tripped on my skirt a zillion times. im tired. but i did catch up on my card-playing skills. who knew that rehearsal could lead you to remember old card games that you had 'forgotten' how to play years ago...damn...gonna go sleep now. tired as poo...
Bruxinha427: wow my brain is not functioning
Bruxinha427: must sleep
Mer498: dude
Bruxinha427: in like
Mer498: its EARLY
Bruxinha427: nowness
Bruxinha427: oh shut up you nocturnal baboon
Bruxinha427: i am going to bed
Bruxinha427: nighty night
Mer498: nighty night
Bruxinha427 signed off at 10:55 PM
Thursday, April 15, 2004
Bruxinha427: silly meredith AGAIN
Bruxinha427: ahem
Mer498: haha
Bruxinha427: i shall email you the bloggyness
Mer498: merci
er498: haha
Mer498: he's just so...not teenater-ish
Bruxinha427: i know
Bruxinha427: it's like
Mer498: he needs to get laid
Bruxinha427:
INFINITE BRAIN
Mer498: hahaahhaha!
Bruxinha427: *tiny font* fetus-level social skills */tiny font*
Bruxinha427: hahahahah!
Bruxinha427: oh god
Bruxinha427: i'm not sure how well that would go
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: "wait? what are you doing?!?!? whats THAT for??!?!?"
Bruxinha427: HAHAHA!
Mer498: and i have the urge to start chewing on my toe next to my pinkie toe
Mer498: it itches
Mer498: and scratching isnt helping
Mer498: now its better
Bruxinha427:
Bruxinha427: the chewing did not actually take place
Mer498: er
Mer498: um...would it lower your opinion of me or salem students?
Bruxinha427: hahaha!
Bruxinha427: i forgot you are
Bruxinha427: rolly flexiball
Mer498: lmao
Bruxinha427: of course you are
Mer498: my toe really does feel better now though
Wednesday, April 14, 2004
me: "those are old man shoes, my grandfather wears shoes like that"
martha: "they are NOT old man shoes"
me: "they look like my grandfather's slippers"
martha: "well, then they are pretty man shoes"
hannah: "they are gay man shoes"
arg. that ENTIRE TIME i just wanted to smash luke's head in with a baseball bat. i really dont like him.
sorry guys...these really are addicting
FIRSTS
First best friend: christiana
First car: none, sadly
First real kiss: :-*
First break-up: um...it was more of a mutual understanding
First screen name: meredithamay. how creative. my dad set it up for me. it sucked.
First self purchased album: ummmm, i'm thinking vertical horizon, but i could be wrong
First funeral: my aunt marthas
First pets: fish
First piercing/tattoo: ears
First credit card: VISA!!!! woot!
First true love: eh
First enemy: lets not go there
First big trip: it was either the beach when i was like, 6 mo old, or california, when i was around 7 months old...however you define "big trip"
First music you remember hearing in your house: idk
LASTS
Last car ride: home from school
Last kiss: sadly, spring break
Last good cry: two days ago, but lets not go there
Last library book checked out: louis braille, for english stupid thingy
Last movie seen: um...rocky horror picture show
Last beverage drank: dr pepper
Last food consumed: hamburger
Last crush: idk
Last phone call: my mom
Last time showered: yesterday night
Last shoes worn: my pink flip flops from stanford :)
Last item bought: mellow yellow from the drink machine
Last annoyance: french
Last time wanting to die: lets not go there
Last time scolded: today
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
01. who are your best friends? pple
02. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? ;)
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
01. where is your favorite place to shop? either hot topic, sephora, or swatch
02. any tattoos or piercings? ears...didnt they already ask this or something?
s p e c i f i c s
01. do you do drugs?
02. what kind of shampoo do you use? i go back and forth between finesse and loreal
03. what are you most scared of? spiders. ick
04. what are you listening to right now? everclear. stupid question
05. where do you want to get married? somewhere small and private
f a v o u r i t e s
01. color: red
02. food: ooo, that ones hard
03. subjects in school: math
04. animals: dogs :)
05. sports: volleyball!
06. perfume: clinique happy heart
07. cologne: curve for men
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
01. given anyone a bath? this kid i was babysitting once...she was really little
02. smoked? yeah
03. bungee jumped? no, but i want to soo bad!!!
04. made yourself throw up? nope
05. skinny dipped? *grin*
06: ever been in love? nah
07. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? not really...i mean, i did when i was like 4, but not since then
08. pictured your crush naked? nope
09. actually seen your crush naked? well isnt THAT an interesting question
10. cried when someone died? yes...who the fuck would say no??
11. lied? nope ;)
12. fallen for your best friend? no...considering my best friends have pretty much all been girls...
13. been rejected? sure
14. rejected someone? yep
15. used someone? well.......yeah. unfortunately
16. done something you regret? dammit...yes
c u r r e n t
clothes: jeans + everclear tshirt
music: everclear, smfta
make-up: um...i was wearing some eyeliner yesterday...there might still be some on. other than that, nope
smell: grass. neighbor's mowing lawn
favorite artist: EVERCLEAR!!! need you ask?
desktop picture: frodo :)
book your reading: um...nothing at the moment actually
cd in player: so much for the afterglow
dvd in player: friends, season 1, disc 2
color of toenails: black w/ white polka dots
l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: amber?
hugged: lexi
you imed: nikki
you kissed: alex
a r e | y o u
understanding: it depends
open-minded: for most things
arrogant: i hope not...
insecure: yep
interesting: well I dont think so...
hungry: no
smart: hell yeah!
moody: definately
hardworking: hell no
organized: only w/ some things
healthy: no way dude
shy: only sometimes
bored easily: yes
responsible: not really
obsessed: only w/ everclear...
angry: at some pple
sad: sometimes
disappointed: in some people
happy: not really
hyper: only after a lot of caffeine
trusting: not really
talkative: depends on who im talking to
legal: not yet
r a n d o m
what do you notice first: usually eyes, unless he has GORGEOUS hair or something
last person you danced with: erm...idk his name...random christy
worst question to ask: idk
who makes you laugh the most: different things
who makes you smile: guys :)
who gives you a funny feeling when you see them: um...not telling YOU that
who do you have a crush on: eh, not really a 'crush'
who has a crush on you: idk
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone to IM you: no way
save conversations: very rarely...i think i've got 2 saved
wish you were a member of the opposite sex: no way dude
wish you were younger: aw hell no
cry because someone said something to you: only a couple times
n u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: lets not go there
of hearts i have broken: i hope 0
of guys i've kissed: haha
of girls i've kissed: none...
of continents i have lived in: 1
of tight friends: um...*counts* 2 or 3
of cds i own: um....60 or 70 i think
of scars on body: like im gonna count...
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
dude, i really hate ms lawrence. she's so evil!!! you CANNOT write a good, interesting thesis about a DESCRIPTIVE ESSAY!! i mean, if you're DESCRIBING something for your whole paper, and you give someone a summary in the thesis statement, WHO WANTS TO KEEP READING?!?!?! you already know what its about!! *grumble*
Monday, April 12, 2004
*an embarrased paris storming out of a room angrily at the beach*
paris: well EXCUSE ME for thinking a banana eating contest was about eating bananas!!
flashofthunder18: whoa!!! that's so weird!!! i just listened to that song for the first time in like a year!!!!
Auto response from Mer498: i'm going to a pretty place now where the flowers grow. i'll be back in an hour or so.
flashofthunder18: whooooaaaooooaaaaaaaaaa
flashofthunder18: hahahah
flashofthunder18: why does kently have even less respect for stephanie and susan hearn?
flashofthunder18: hmm ok
flashofthunder18: ooh funny away message:
flashofthunder18: i'm cutting down on the amount of time i spend online and upping the amount of time i spend having sex.
flashofthunder18: i think that's what i need to start doing
flashofthunder18: damn
flashofthunder18: you know
flashofthunder18: emily said this awhile ago and i totally agree with her. applies to me too...
flashofthunder18: "i think i would get a lot more dates if i were a lesbian"
flashofthunder18: dates can be substituted with "ass"
flashofthunder18: stupid stupid boys
flashofthunder18: *sigh*
flashofthunder18: wow
flashofthunder18: i just realized i'm talking to your away message
flashofthunder18: ooooh bye! chinese food and slashy fanfiction! yay!
flashofthunder18: hope youre havinga SPECTACULAR easter break. or at leasst not awful. i've been wearing the same boxers and tank top the entire break sitting by the computer, eating nutella with a spoon, feeling sick, and for reasons unbeknownst to me watching gone with the wind at least twice. so my break hasnt been great. but i guess i cant complain. ok bye!
she came out west to find the sun
she lost her name but found a new one
amy goes to school all day but at night in the neighborhood
they call her amphetamine
she is perfect in that fucked up way that all the magazines
seem to wanna glorify these days
she came out west just to break away clean
from her family and her friends
and her little girls dreams
all she wants to do every night
is to sit beside my window
and listen to the sirens
she looks like she could've been happy in another life
I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains
You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down, pour your misery down on me
I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are going wrong
I only listen to the sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains
I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidentally tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
You can keep me company
As long as you don't care
I'm only happy when it rains
You wanna hear about my new obsession?
I'm riding high upon a deep depression
I'm only happy when it rains (Pour some misery down on me)
I'm only happy when it rains
Sunday, April 11, 2004
*talking about how aol sucks*
then:
martha2361: here comes peter cottontail..
martha2361: hoping down the bunny trail
Mer498: ...dude
Mer498: how much more random could u get?
Sunday, April 11, 2004
1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 5. Write down what it says:
"crammed with goodies. Then she remembered her"
2. Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: the printer
3. What was the last thing you watched on TV?: trading spaces home free
4. WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what the time it is?: 9:27
5. Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 9:53
6. With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
the empire records soundtrack
7. When did you last step outside? what were you doing?: walking outside to say bye to andrea as she left
8. What are you wearing?: pi day tshirt, capris, some jewelry
9. Did you dream last night?: um...not that i remember
10. When did you last laugh?: while i was watching the rocky horror picture show
11. What is on the walls of the room you are in?: *looks around* absolutely nothing...wow, i didnt realize how boring this room really is
12. Seen anything weird lately?:frankenfurter from rocky horror picture show.
13. What do you think of this quiz?: its kinda strange
14. What is the last film you saw?: rocky horror pic show
15. If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
a house somewhere far the fuck away from here
16. Tell me something about you that I don't know:
um...i really dont like licorice
17. If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
i would make sure morons like bush could NEVER get any power whatsoever in the world
18. Do you like to dance?:
sure
19. George Bush:
is a moron and an asshole
20. Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
amy
21. Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: stuart
easter was so much more fun when you could like, dye eggs and hide them in really obvious places then compete w/ your best friend for how many you could find...and when it wasnt rainy, and you could go around the back yard finding caterpillars and then bringing them all back into the wooden playhouse in the back yard. we always kept the fuzziest caterpillar. we'd get an old jelly jar and punch holes in the lid. we'd put some sticks and leaves and a little bit of water in the jar. we'd name them and everything. sometimes when it was rainy, we'd be inside and we'd take out the caterpillar and watch it crawl all over our arms and things like that, or we'd just put on our rollerblades and skate around the neighborhood even though it was raining and we werent supposed to. it was the most fun when it rained. you could go through puddles and get even more soaked. you could go farther on bikes, but the neighborhood wasn't all that big and i had to use her little sister's bike. it was a little too short for me, and once i lost control of it and crashed into a mailbox. i wasnt hurt, but it kinda messed up the mailbox. it was so much fun running away as fast as we could so we wouldnt get in trouble. i miss those kind of easter days. nothing boring like this one. there's no magic. there's no fun. there's nothing even remotely special about today.
Mer498: all the while i wanna run up to him and molest him or something...
Mer498: *hangs head*
Mer498: he's soo damn hot
Bruxinha427: hahaha
Bruxinha427: he's a plastic mattel doll meredith
Bruxinha427: god
Mer498: i know
Mer498: but..
Mer498: but...
Mer498: he's sweet
Bruxinha427: stop sexually craving mass-produced objects
Mer498: and he smells good
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: lmao
Bruxinha427: haha
Saturday, April 10, 2004
Mer498: SCORE!!!!!
Mer498: i am victorious!
Mer498: *does victory lap*
Bruxinha427: the andrea admits defeat
Mer498: *smacks into wall*
guess who just wrapped andrea's christmas present. ohyes. i'm good. its only a little over 3 months late!!
Bruxinha427: so what are you and elijah going to name your children
Mer498: eugene clarence
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: nice
Mer498: yep
Mer498: eugene clarence wood
Mer498: im also leaning towards "oliver"
Bruxinha427: also nice
Mer498: oliver wood has a nice ring to it
Bruxinha427:
Bruxinha427: where have i heard that
Mer498: HARRY POTTER YOU LOSER
Bruxinha427: oh YEAH
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: what about atlanta
Mer498: no way in hell
Bruxinha427: but it's a metropolitan area
Bruxinha427: with nice weather
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: yeah, but its still all southerny w/ southern accents, southern style people, and freakishly hot weather
Bruxinha427: oh yeah, i forgot you enjoy dying of hypothermia in the frozen tundra
Mer498: yeah
winston salem really sucks. there is absolutely nothing fun to do here. grrr. why cant we have cool stuff too....
Friday, April 09, 2004
dude, david is so computer obsessed, he even made a webpage for his and andrea's daughter. geez. baby webpage
andrea: there are certain good things about being a girl. it is, at times, surprisingly comforting when you've had a day like this to realize that it's mostly PMS. whereas guys would just be like...i'm miserable. and i have a...penis.
Bruxinha427: oh the NEWSPAPER
Bruxinha427: damn you subscribers
Bruxinha427: damn you to dirty rotten hell
Mer498: hm...what should i have for breakfast
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: um
Bruxinha427: pop rocks
Mer498: ooh
Mer498: yum
Mer498: i wish we had those
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: a MUFFIN
Bruxinha427: some children get muffins for breakfast
Mer498: sadly, we dont have any of those either
Mer498: but not harold
Bruxinha427: some children get muffins for snacks
Bruxinha427: OOH!
Bruxinha427: but not meredith
Bruxinha427: meredith
Bruxinha427: was muffinless
Mer498: like "whats that sign say.....its...OH! thats the road i want!" *slams on breaks and turns on 2 wheels*
Bruxinha427: lol
Bruxinha427: exactly
Bruxinha427: perfect plan
Mer498: :-D
Bruxinha427: another perfect plan from the fertile brain of meredith
Mer498: :-D
Bruxinha427: i almost typed breain
Mer498: hehheh
Bruxinha427: what an ironic worde to misspell
Bruxinha427: AHHHH
Bruxinha427: word
Bruxinha427: ye olde worde
Mer498: *points and laughs*
Bruxinha427: nice friends don't do that to each other meredith
Bruxinha427: *sniff*
Mer498: um...yeah they do
Mer498: at salem they do
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: hey kids! lets try to drown ourselves on a river!
Bruxinha427: yeah
Bruxinha427: oh!!!
Bruxinha427: mr. heinsohn
Mer498: hm?
Bruxinha427: the eurasia guy
Mer498: yeah
Bruxinha427: chaperoned last year (a white water rafting trip)
Mer498: applausable thumbs
Mer498: oh dear
Bruxinha427: and fell out and almost drowned
Bruxinha427: yes
Mer498: YES!
Mer498: omg, thats great!
Mer498: i'd just sit back and watch him struggle
Bruxinha427: applausable thumbs not such a big help to you NOW!!
Bruxinha427: hehehehe!
Bruxinha427: ehhehehehe!
Bruxinha427: hehe!
Bruxinha427: heh
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: haha
Mer498: at rehearsal monday or something
Mer498: this wasp kinda fell out from the lighting walkway thingy
Mer498: and bounced off of sarah livengood's shirt
Mer498: i was sitting right behind her
Mer498: and chris was sitting next to her
Bruxinha427: oh!!! one time we were staying at the beach and i got out of bed, swung my feet over the side, and stood up
Bruxinha427: and i felt something cold between my toes
Mer498: she just kinda sits there all terrified and screams
Bruxinha427: and i lifted up my foot to look at it
Mer498: and chris whaps it out of the way w/ his script
Mer498: and then walks over and stomps it as the entire room screeches to a stop b/c of the insect
Bruxinha427: and a cockroach's midsection was lodged between my big toe and the one next to it
Mer498: you know you're at an all girls school when...
Mer498: EEEW!!!!!!!!
Mer498: EW EW EW!
Bruxinha427: and its butt and head with the feelers all move-y were still on the floor
Bruxinha427: i know
Bruxinha427: it was way traumaticd
Bruxinha427: it's why i'm...
Bruxinha427: the way i am
Mer498: lol
Bruxinha427: *hangs head*
Mer498: i love how we both told stories at once
Bruxinha427: yeah i know
Bruxinha427: i was sitting next to a sixth grader in the computer lab today
Mer498: omg!
Mer498: WOW!
Bruxinha427: i was doing some random research
Mer498: thats AMAZING!
Bruxinha427: and she was searching for pics of elijah wood
Mer498: awww
Bruxinha427: and she was very frustrated and upset
Mer498: how cute
Mer498: she has an unrealistic crush!
Mer498: i pity her
Bruxinha427: because nothing was coming up
Mer498: i mean, im gonna marry him
Bruxinha427: because she kept typing elija
Mer498: she's just gonna have to deal
Bruxinha427: lol
Mer498: OMG!!!!!!!
Mer498: elija wood
Mer498: lmao
Bruxinha427: hahaha
Thursday, April 08, 2004
*is pissed off*
i went to blockbuster to get velvet goldmine, and they didnt have it. "sorry, we dont carry that movie." grrrr.
Wednesday, April 07, 2004
Mer498: *cough* [name] is hott *cough*
Bruxinha427: he broke up with [other name]!!!
Mer498: OMG
Mer498: OMG OMG OMG
Mer498: IS HE AVAILABLE?????
Bruxinha427: the one he was actually going out with
Mer498: *drools all over computer*
Bruxinha427: i suppose so
Mer498: omg, i actually did just kinda drool there
Mer498: whoops
Bruxinha427: HAHAHAHA
Mer498: shut up
Mer498: he's GORGEOUS
whoah!!! minkus is on one tree hill!!!! that kicks as s!!!! i was watching it last night and THERE HE WAS!!! thats so awesome cuz like, he goes to wake forest, and oen tree hill films...wherever dawsons creek used to film. somewhere in nc. man, i love minkus. :)
dude, pice of advice. dont go outside to sun after school unless you wanna get burned cuz you'll just have a conversation with sarah and mary and forget how badly you're burning. i'm crispy. heh heh. it'll turn into tan. eventually. ;)
wow...i was looking online for an article about visual impairments, and right above the article i needed was "t.rans.exual arrested in eddie murphy's car last year dies in accident." it made me wonder whether or not my source was reliable....oh well, who cares. its just english. misinformation is fun. :)
Monday, April 05, 2004
hannah C took this and got: *drum roll*
...in strange and unusual positions! Baaaaaah
What's your sexual perversion?
Created by ptocheia
Especially the ones that go off right after you've sat down, and spray your ass. Dont'cha just hate that?
What pisses you off?
Created by ptocheia
Sunday, April 04, 2004
C U R R E N T S
{x} current clothes: jeans and my stratosphere tshirt
{x} current mood: somewhat pissed off
{x} current taste: a mint
{x} current annoyance: daylight savings time
{x} current smell: dog
{x} current thing you ought to be doing: homework
{x} current worry: im supposed to have like, 3 songs memorized by tomorrow
{x} current sound: smile empty soul
{x} current fav food: umm... chocolate...or pie
{x} current fav shoes: my new ones that are all comfy and pretty
{x} current fav TV show: the oc!!!!!
{x} current fav movie: um...empire records. woot!
H A V E Y O U / A R E Y O U / D O Y O U
{x} considered a life of crime? well uh, uh, im not gonna tell you that!
{x} schizophrenic? not really
{x} obsessive? only about SOME things...
{x} obsessive compulsive? somewhat
{x} panic? it depends
{x} anxiety? not really
{x} depressed? *cough*
{x} understanding? not really...im kinda bitchy about stuff like that. "oh, you have a problem? SUCKS FOR YOU!"
{x} open-minded? mostly
{x} insecure? not really
{x} interesting? at the moment, no. these things are inherently boring
{x} friendly? to most pple
{x} smart? *laughs* no way man
{x} moody? oh, definately
{x} independent? i would be MORE independent with a car...
{x} hard working? hell no
{x} organized? only about very few things
{x} healthy? i try but it doesn't always work
{x} difficult? only with some pple, and then its deliberate
{x} attractive? oh baby! :-*
{x} bored easily? hm...biology...european...french
{x} responsible? aaaahaa! nope
{x} talkative? only sometimes
{x} lonely? nah
{x} color your hair? nope
{x} ever get off the compouter? only when my dad kicks me off
Saturday, April 03, 2004
dude! i remember this dream!!!
Mer498: OH, i had the weirdest/totally awesome dream!
Mer498: i was at hanes mall looking for a birthday present for, of all people, nicky leow. as i was walking out of claires, considering buying some anti gross shampoo, who did i run into, but art alexakis
Mer498: i pulled a sharpie out of the back pocket of my pants (cuz i always keep one there) and asked him to autograph my forehead. he was totally cool and did. so i had "art alexakis" written in pretty green sharpie on my forehead. and then i made him come to my car to autograph my cd collection. (i drove a jaguar!!!!!!!!) anyway, suddenly we were in my basement and started to play pool
Velvetskylark: did you have sex w/ art alexis on the pool table?
Velvetskylark: NO, BAD MEREDITH!!!
Mer498: NOOOOOO
Mer498: *smacks cait*
Mer498: he totally sucked at pool, and i beat him. twice. :-D then, somehow the story about the guy who accidently ate his hair at the concert, and the comment "i dunno, maybe some people would think it would taste good with teriyaki..." so we went to the store to buy some teriyaki. (although eating his hair was never part of the plan)
Mer498: as we were teriyaki shopping, i decided i needed to buy a new house
Mer498: so he said "ooh! i know this great realtor!" and whips out his cellphone. which is exactly like mine. so we did the whole "nice phone" thing. and i bought a house. w/out even looking at it cuz i trusted his realtor
Mer498: as i got to my new house, it totally rocked. it is my dream house. so as i parked my jaguar on the driveway, i went inside and everything was perfect
Mer498: so i had him sign my front door, and he left
Mer498: after i explored the rest of my house, i went to sleep on the sofa. (yes, i went to sleep in my dream) and that was it
Mer498: i dreamed that the evil death ray was out to get people, and only the everclear poster could save you from getting zapped
Mer498: *(there's more)
Mer498: and everone who wasnt touching the magic everclear poster was gotten by the death ray.
Velvetskylark: oooooooooootay
Mer498: so william (cousin) and i were swimming at the pool i used to be a member of, and the evil death ray came out, and i made them come over and touch the magic poster
Mer498: but they said 'this is stupid' and left to go inside and eat dinner.
Mer498: of course, they were zapped. so after they were dead, i folded up my poster like a map and we invaded their house
Mer498: we were cooking dinner when the mail man (who magically survived the evil death ray) came up and accused us of being behind the evil death ray because we were the only ones who werent killed
Mer498: so i tried to explain about the magic everclear poster, but he didnt beleive me so i shot him
Mer498: then my dad woke me up
Mer498: it was very strange
*Caitlin attempts to rip Meredith's hair out*
Meredith; ''Argh. Don't rip my hair out. I need that hair to keep from being bald.''
the weirdest dream i have ever had:
Mer498: i was wearing the horrible brownish-orange sweater that i got for christmas, when all of a sudden carleigh and i decided to sneak out of my hotel room where both of our families were on vacation and go to a bar. as we were sitting there, the bartender handed her a whiskey and me a butterbeer. i got smashingly drunk and had a very good time, but we snuck back in and fell asleep on the astro-turf. when we woke up, she had a hangover, but i didn't. so naturally i told dad that she had snuck out and i had seen her, but i stayed home like a good little girl and watched porn.
Mer498: i was in drivers ed, and randy had REALLY chapped lipls, and was complaining. then he asked if anybody had chapstick. then alicia (slutty girl) said "i have lip gloss..." and so he said "i'm desperate, can i have some?" so he put it on, and was like "WHOAH! its all... smooth, and it smells good... its like a breath mint for your lips! no wonder girls wear it all the time!"
Mer498: and then greg said "it takes a real man to wear lip gloss" very sarcasticly
Velvetskylark: LMAO
Mer498: lesson learned: even if you don't actually WEAR lip gloss, its a good thing to keep it with you at all times
Mer498: and im sean biggerstaff!
Velvetskylark: if you really were, i'd be driving over to your house right now, but you're not, and i am not a lesbian, so poor meredith, will in fact have to die a virgin
Mer498: my 2nd grade science teacher had a chinchilla in her classroom
Mer498: it was SOOO soft, adn i fed it raisens
Mer498: raisons
Velvetskylark: raisins
Mer498: yeah, that
Mer498: I NEED A GUY
Velvetskylark: you sound so desperate
Mer498: they should make a movie: how to GET a guy in 10 days
Mer498: i feel so alone :'(
Mer498: i am guy deprived
Mer498: i have no one to shove their tongue down my throat
i really dont remember this dream...
Mer498: i dreamed that i was at walmart, buying 5000 cans of grape soda, and the checkout lady was wearing lots, i mean LOTS of makeup, and she ran all of the soda through the little scanner thingy, and went "that'll be 39 cents"...
Mer498: so i paid her a quarter and left. then my dad went on a long story about how he always keeps a grape soda at the front of the fridge at work so that
Mer498: he would see it, and remember how much he likes grape soda, and buy some more sometime
Mer498: because he was out and needed lots more so that when the grasshoppers came they would be happy. then i woke up
Velvetskylark: now lexi and i can both talk about the hot guy that you don't know
Mer498: we have one in our fridge from a couple weeks ago
yeah. this was from forever ago...
Friday, April 02, 2004
Thursday, April 01, 2004
me, fruzsina, and amber: i'm a casserole!!!!!
*later*
me: casseroles dont go to soccer games!
fruzsina: i'm a mobile casserole!
